Some say that wisdom comes with age. I am now a year older….so does that mean I’m a year wiser? That seems questionable. What I do know is that I have evolved. A year ago today I was still in recovery mode. Trying to get my life back to normal after a magical 8 months on the road with the West Side Story tour. I was trying to get my feet back on the ground, back to reality, and dealing with the usual fears that come with the end of one adventure and the beginning of….who knows?
In one year I have evolved from a heartbroken ingenue to a motivated go-getter, to a terrified creative type and finally ended up as a centred, hopeful optimist (on a good day, or course)! All I’m trying to say is that I am a year older and I DO feel wiser, but not because I have more knowledge or more answers. I feel wiser because I have gone through a year’s worth of experiences that have informed me of the world, my life in it, and what I need to do to get through it in one piece. For that I am grateful.
Have you ever read the series of books ‘What I Know Now‘? I read them about 5 years ago and they have stuck with me ever since. ‘What I know Now’ is a collection of letters that well-known and accomplished women have written to their younger selves. The letters are a reminder that we all start out the same. Scared, foolish, lost, optimistic and hopeful.
This picture is of me on my first day of Kindergarden in Lima, Peru. I still have this uniform and I will never get rid of it. It’s a reminder of a life I miss and am proud of…and it’s pretty darn cute. What follows is a short letter to my younger self.
You are so excited to begin this new adventure. You love school. The schedule, the order, the rules, the people, the curiosity! All things that will fuel you in the future. However, I also know you are nervous. What if the kids don’t like you, what if it’s too hard? What if, god forbid, the teacher doesn’t like you? All these questions are running through your head but you have always been able to keep your chin up and not show the fear. You are proud of your strength.
I’m here to tell you that you will be fine! You will have friends. School will be an exciting adventure and won’t give you any trouble. Teachers will become friends, they will teach you more than just reading and writing and you will be open to the lessons. You will fill your head with your own opinions and your curiosity will enable you to dream big. I also want to tell you to let your guard down. It’s ok to show weakness, people will be there to help you. You can be strong and independent while at the same time need a helping hand. You will still have friends even if you share with them your curious interests…theatre, singing, going to Peru, Gloria, Bernadette! Make sure to never compromise who you are and what you believe. People will respect you for it.
So little one, have a great first day. Just be yourself and learn a lot. Enjoy the playground, do some cartwheels and make some friends!
Excited for you,